Loky's Den

Saturday, September 30, 2006 2:39 am

Well... Mum just nagged at me for dumping alot of stuff on my bed in my room.

'Kor coming back tomorrow leh... Clear all those stuff ok?'

I always had this feeling...

That I'm living in my Kor's shadow.

1.

My mum LOVES the way my kor dress up and stuff.She always compare me to him.
I know that I'm not as good looking as kor ok?
That's why I'm changing.
I wanna look and feel better.
He always says my mouth big etc etc.
Everyone has their own flaws ok?

2.

Most of my secondary school friends is his friends.
His friends? I only know a handful.
Why?
Same CCA.
My classmates play games with him. They click better with my kor.
He also always ask me about who am I going out with etc etc.
What is my exsistance proof?

3.

His just my Mum's xing gan bao bei la...
Why?
Maybe I resemble my dad. That's why she prefer my kor.
His the elder son also.
2nd son is worth.... Nothing.

I really can't imagine what will my life be after kor come out from NS and I go in.

Will she still like worry how am I in army etc.?

Doubt so.

Was here but not Now.